Looking for dawn

Looking for dawn, Friday, 01/30/2009 at 4:45pm on FB

As I throw my legs over the bed, my feet search for my slippers, situated on the floor next to the bed. I slide my feet in, grudgingly rise, & shuffle my way through the darkness, to the bathroom. I take joy in the fact that at this time, I’m only making one trip to the bathroom each night. Very soon, I will need to make multiple trips to the bathroom each night. (I’m eight weeks pregnant, now. After the baby is born, no telling how many times I'll be up each night!)

Darkness. It hides sin. It keeps us from seeing truth.

One of my favorite pastimes (of the mind) is to ponder what heaven will be like. I have so many questions. (Maybe you have some, too?) Will we have to go to the bathroom? Will angels have wings with feathers like a bird, or skin like a bat? (Bats are mammals-I’m not saying that angels are mammals--I have no idea--that’s another question.) How will we travel? Just think of a place, & we’re there? Will I still need to take “classes” to learn new things? (I think we will always be learning.) Will I always be able to sing on key? Will I know all the words to the songs? I think there will be animals in heaven--but will my pets be there? Will I be able to communicate with animals? I have dozens of questions--I won’t list them all here.

Last night, Abbie asked me if she would be able to see God’s eyes, when we get to heaven. I told her, yes. She asked if we could meet God together. I know she’s little, & meeting new people is scary to her now, but I pray that she will KNOW God, long before we go to heaven. (Abbie is only 3 years old, now.)

I’m reading the book by C.S. Lewis, titled “The Problem With Pain.” In it, Lewis talks about the doctrine of The Fall, & what man may have been like before the fall. He suggests that his spirit was in COMPLETE control of his body, even over involuntary things like being hungry, or tired, or digestion, or having to go to the bathroom. The spirit was not overwhelmed by these “desires” of the body. It’s hard to imagine that much control over your being. Of course, that control was forfeit when man decided to elevate his own desires above God. We now inherit an entirely different body, than that of the paradisal man. How much easier it would have been to worship God, without the “pull” of our flesh. Now, our flesh rules us. We live in sin, death & darkness.

“The people dwelling in darkness have seen a great light, and for those dwelling in the region and shadow of death, on them a light has dawned.” Matthew 4:16 ESV

Jesus is the light that has dawned on us.

“For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.” 2 Corinthians 4:6 ESV

We can’t see Jesus completely now, because of our flesh. But one day, in heaven, we’ll meet Him & see His eyes.

“For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.” I Corinthians 3:12 ESV

I’m really looking forward to that day. No more darkness.

How about you?


“For at one time you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light.” Ephesians 5:8 ESV